9 DPO

So here I am at 9 DPO without much to report really. I haven't had much in the way of symptoms at all. I was kind of crampy 7-8DPO, and I have been gassy for a few days, but that's it. Gas is not exactly a reliable pg symptom and the cramping could have been caused by the gas. I know that some woman really don't have many "symptoms" but it just seems to confirm what I already thought, that I am out this month. In fact ff gives me a 20% chance of being pg this month! Although they did give me an 85% chance last month, so what do they know!

The only thing that I find kind of strange is that I have been craving chocolate for the last two days. This is definitely a PMS symptom for me but it is kind of early for it to show up. Since I had so much confusion about when I O'd this month I am wondering if I might be further along in my cycle then I think I am.

I have been true to my word so far this cycle, I have not tested so far. I am purposely not buying tests so that I will not be tempted. I did do a OPK yesterday though just to see if it was anywhere near dark and it was not. Not sure that means anything this early, but I had heard that they turn positive if you are pg.

So nothing much going on here. I wish I could just move on to the next month. Or at least know for absolute certainty that I am out this month. I keep holding on to the tiniest bit of hope that I could be pg and I am just ready to let it go now.